Status

What a facebook status just can't capture:

I am 34, single. I'm a vet student in my first year. I'm as lonely as I've ever been, in certain ways -- ways that matter very much. I am heart-broken and hoping against hope. I am practicing patience as I force self-sacrifice. I live at a dark latitude in a cold climate. I find the hubbub of Starbucks unsatisfying as a substitute for the companionship of people I know and love. My heart pounds with sorrow when I look back, with apprehension when I look ahead, and my heart falls into the present as into a pit.

I am learning how to pray. I treasure the quiet company of a cat. I burn candles for their small offerings of light and warmth. I listen to the rain. I try to love.